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I cannot keep silent anymore. It’s been going for too long and it’s driving me nuts. Mental health illnesses are wreaking havoc in my family and I’m feeling sad, angry, hurt and frustrated. My youngest, age 13, suffers from anorexia. My oldest, age 15, suffers from school phobia. Both conditions appeared this year, though the school phobia has been going on for longer. Both conditions have affected all four of us deeply, as well as everything that surrounds us – school, activities, friends, relationships. It sucks. It really, really sucks and I feel like I’m hitting a brick wall.
Only my youngest didn’t get up for very long. She came to the kitchen, looked at the lunch boxes and went back to her bedroom to lie down.
She looked so pale, so fragile. Curled up in foetal position, she looked miserable inside and outside her body. I wanted to hug her, to make her feel better, but she didn’t want to be touched.
“I’m not feeling well.”
这是一个句子我们经常听说自从summer and the fact is, she didn’t look well at all. Initially, we attributed it to tiredness from school. Tiredness from being too much on screens. It’s ironic for us, used to enjoy the outdoors during every weekend and vacation, that we now spend our weekends hoping and praying that one of our girls will be upbeat enough to join us outside. The truth is, my husband and I have been going outside by ourselves as of late, leaving the girls at home. Its not a bad thing per se, except the absence of my daughters when we’re outside is a cruel reminder of their poor mental state.
I cannot share my plant discoveries with my youngest anymore.
I cannot play imaginary games on the trail with her anymore.
I cannot discuss school friends with my oldest anymore.
They’ve slowly but surely stopped going outside.
但是，厌食是吸吮的生活给她的。她的能量水平一路下滑。她仅重38公斤/ 83磅到1.60米/ 5“2”。她经常从学校回来厌恶的，不肯去她的艺术类或拒绝做功课。
“What have you had for lunch?” I ask.
It’s a lie.
I didn’t know it was a lie until this week, when the school counsellor called me. My daughter had skipped lunch three days in a row. She also hadn’t had breakfast, which made dinner her only meal of the day, only she would eat three cookies after school and say she wasn’t hungry for dinner.
My daughter suffers from anorexia and I want her to be happy but I don’t know how to do it.
The outdoors used to make us happy.
The outdoors has become a luxury, something we do when on vacation because it’s planned.
However, our slow withdrawal from the outdoors started with my oldest’ school phobia a couple of years ago. If you don’t know what school phobia is, it’s also known asschool refusal这是一个严重的焦虑，其表现自己，为我的女儿，在削弱腹部疼痛和头痛。通常情况下，她就开始强调在学校上周六，感觉更糟，在床上待上周日，将在周一上午不堪。周一来了又走，周二来来去去，并在周三，她开始感觉好多了。
Believe me, I try, but trying’s not good enough.
Though neither my husband nor I suffer from mental health diseases, we both suffer the side-effects of metal health diseases. Each bad day for our girls is a blow to our mental. Each time I hear or see my girls lying in bed and suffering inside their heads, it breaks my heart into a million pieces. Each time I see their eyes looking away and retreating to dark thoughts, I want to shake the sadness out of them. I want to find the culprit, kick it hard in the butt, tell it never to come back and eradicate it from out lives. I want to take this shitty anorexia or anxiety and burn it to ashes.
I want our life back.
I don’t want to smile when deep inside I’m crying.
My eldest daughter now sees a psychologist every week. It helps. She’s much better and she’s improved her school attendance as well as her general mood. She keeps singing with her singing teacher and her choir, something that makes us all very happy.
Ironically, now that my oldest’s situation has improved, my youngest suffering from anorexia. That’s pretty twisted.
I don’t know how to fight anorexia but I will find a way. We all will. We need to, for my daughter’s sake. She’s a bright kid, she’s got a bright future ahead of her if only she would love herself and find her confidence.
Mental health illnesses have been ruining our lives and we need to talk about the mental health of our kids. They may seem happy on the outside when they’re really dark inside.
我分享这个,希望它会开始一场骗局versation. Neither of my girls know that I’m writing this and they’re probably going to be pissed but I can’t pretend that we’re all a happy family when we’re not. Yes, we go places, we do stuff, but we’re a broken family right now.
Mental health is a taboo in our society. It’s terrible and destructive, but it needs to be addressed as much as physical health.
This is wrong.
I look forward to the day when we can all go back to the outdoors as a family with a bento box and blue sushi rice pandas, without worrying about what tomorrow will bring.
In the meantime, I’ll keep fighting with a heavy heart.